I see, therefore it is


"Seeing is believing". The essence of St. Thomas's claim to Jesus Christ, to which the latter responded that there were those who had not seen, but believed. Last Monday, I have seen the movie I Origins - and I believed it was a beautiful and brave effort to make spiritual matters more accessible. This 2014 American science fiction film, written, directed, and produced by Mike Cahill, is a "thought-provoking drama" on science vs. (or besides) spirituality. Graduate student Ian Gray is researching the evolution of human eyes -in his lab, using worms without eyes-, when he meets the spiritual Sofi and talks with her about God, in which he does not believe. "Sofi, I believe in proof. There is no proof that there is some magical spirit..." Sofi is upset, and suggests that humans are like the blind worm:

Sofi: How many senses do worms have? 
Ian: They have two: smell...and touch. Why? 
Sofi: So... they live without any ability to see or even know about light, right?
Ian: The notion of light to them is... unimaginable. 
Sofi: Yeah. But... we humans... we know that light exists... all around them, right on top of them. They cannot sense it, but... with a little mutation, they do. Right?
Ian: Correct.
Sofi: So... Dr. Eye... perhaps some humans... rare humans... have mutated to have another sense...       
a spirit sense... and can perceive a world that is right on top of us... everywhere... just... like the light on these worms.
Ian: So you're a mutant.
Sofi: Mm-hmm.
And I'm not the only one.

You, yes you, are a mutant too! We are all these kind of 'mutants'. I believe that we all have that 'spirit sense'. We just are not used to using it anymore. If you don't use something, it becomes dusty and rusted. We don't believe things because we don't see them, but we are not using our spiritual eyes in the first place. 

As Neale Donald Walsch -American author of the series Conversations with God- says: "the question is not to whom does God talk. The question is: who listens?!" He states that God can communicate with people in many ways (the next song you hear, the next sunset you experience, the next time you hear laughter, ...), and not necessarily through words 'spoken'. It is also the next movie that really moves you; in my case I Origins, that gave me inspiration and important insights, as some pieces of my 100.000 pieces puzzle of me. Also in I Origins there is a special role for the appearing of the number 11 around Ian. It is the master or angel Number 11 that encourages you to rely upon your inner-wisdom and intuition to guide you. Maybe that's what believing in God is all about: believing in the divine wisdom in you.

Of course it's always good, no: necessary, to be critical and conscious about one's own beliefs. To be constantly the spectator of your own thoughts. Where is this idea coming from? Do I want to believe this for a reason that has to do with ego? Or do I purely know this... is this information, straight downloaded from God, or, to keep it simple: from your own inner-wisdom. 

Still, not seeing does not always mean something does not exist. According to comedian Louis CK in his hilarious Saturday Night Live opening monologue (March 29, 2014): I’m not religious. I don’t know if there’s a God. That’s all I can say, honestly, is “I don’t know.” Some people think that they know that there isn’t. That’s a weird thing to think you can know. “Yeah, there’s no God.” Are you sure? “Yeah, no, there’s no God.” How do you know? “Cause I didn’t see Him.” There’s a vast universe! You can see for about 100 yards — when there’s not a building in the way. How could you possibly… Did you look everywhere? Did you look in the downstairs bathroom? Where did you look so far? “No, I didn’t see Him yet.” I haven’t seen 12 Years a Slave yet; it doesn’t mean it doesn’t exist. I’m just waiting until it comes on cable." 

Sources and inspiration: IMDB, Wikipedia, YouTube, sacredscribesangelnumbers.blogspot.nl



School of Life's First Year Lessons

Yesterday I graduated my first year of School of Life. By now I am supposed to know the basics of life therapy and energetic healing and reading. But the thing is, this thing is not called 'School', this is called 'School of Life'. So this is what I really learned.

This year, I learned that being alone is not the same as being lonely. That aloneness is not an absence at all, but a presence. A presence of oneself, in no need for anyone or something... and therefore a pleasant and positive state.  

This year, I experienced that relationships flourish in a feeling of freedom; in an open connectedness, where expectations out of fear make room for intentions full of love.

This year, I figured out I have mistaken gentleness for weakness. And found out vulnerability is actually very powerful.

This year, my masculine Ambition and Action decided to finally hook up with feminine Creative power and Intuition - and together they gave birth to Divine Inspiration, still a little guy, but growing every day.

This year, I finally inhabited my body (I have feet I can feel!), embraced my emotions, transformed yucky fears into life force energy, cleared my cloudy thoughts and opened my secured heart (bit by bit.. ;-)).

This year, I have seen some of the worst of me. In order to open the door to the best of me.

Still scratching the surface, 3 years and a whole life to go.

And believe me, it's been dark, sweat and tears in there, but "my God, it's full of stars!" out there.

Big Thank You to all my teachers, guides, family, friends - especially Bram F.J. van Alphen -, colleagues, class- and schoolmates, who supported me in this year of School named Life. Hello Year 2!