Yes, I do

On April 11, 2009 I said "Yes, I do" to my First Big Love. Today, exactly 5 years later, I signed the last papers to let go of him and the house we built. On the way up to the notary I cried of sadness and mourning. Letting go hurts. On the way back I cried of happiness and gratitude. Loving is pure joy. There is so much Love. I am proud of him, thanks to his Love we where able to let each other go within this Love, and therefore to stay part of each other’s lives. I am proud of myself, that I had the courage to follow my path and heart towards myself and my Now Big Love. And I am proud of him; thanks to his Love we are so happy together now. Yesterday we sat down with the three of us and had beers. This week I paid off all my depts of the house and I turned 34 years old; a new year. And now, I will drive to my dad, the First Man in my life, to bring him my Love and his Birthday blessings. And I will drive smiling.

Today I say "Yes, I do" to Love itself.

And "Thank you" to all the men in my life. Who guide me, teach me, strengthen me, love me. This is an ode to you. Especially Erik Triesscheijn, Vincent Breedveld and Bram van Alphen. And my buddy Jarr Geerligs too. They are Love.